Today was a hard day. My mind would not shut off. It kept replaying memories and conversations. And the pain was so strong. But I stuck to the plan. I went to work and did my daily exercises. I also studied my Patriarchal Blessing and some talks on forgiveness. I found this great quote from Elder Uchtdorf,
"When the Lord requires that we forgive all men, that includes forgiving ourselves. Sometimes, of all the people in the world, the one who is the hardest to forgive-as well as perhaps the one who is most in need of our forgiveness- is the person looking back at us in the mirror."
I'm still working really hard on forgiving myself. Its a long process.
I really hope I can get some sleep and tomorrow is a better day. No matter how hard each day is I know I'm working towards my end goal and it will all be worth it.