Day 20

I love music. It can evoke such emotion inside of me. And sometimes one song can sum up everything I'm thinking and feeling at that moment.

At the beginning of this cleanse I was only able to listen to church music because most every song on my ipad/ipod/iphone brought a reminder of memories and with those memories a pit in my stomach, tightness in my chest, and a flood of tears. But week 2 helped with that and thankfully now I can listen to my music without a sudden emotional breakdown!

Although some songs still get to me like We Are Young by Fun or Somebody I Used to Know by Gotye. When I became obsessed when that song I never thought I would be able to relate to it so well. There is something so painful about someone you loved so much becoming somebody you used to know and that song captures that pain and hurt so well. Tears well up in my eyes every time I hear it.

Anyways yesterday I heard Katy Perry's new song Wide Awake and I fell in love with the lyrics. It had a positive message but it came from a painful place. So for tonight's post I thought I'd share the lyrics to the song. As it sums up what I'm feeling at this moment.

"Wide Awake"

I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake

Yeah, I was in the dark
I was falling hard
With an open heart
I'm wide awake
How did I read the stars so wrong?
I'm wide awake
And now it's clear to me
That everything you see
Ain't always what it seems
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long

I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
'Til I woke up on
On the concrete
Falling from cloud 9
Crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight
Yeah, I'm falling from cloud 9
I'm wide awake

Not losing any sleep
I picked up every piece
And landed on my feet
I'm wide awake
Need nothing to complete myself, no
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I am born again
Outta the lion's den
I don't have to pretend
And it's too late
The story's over now, the end

I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
'Til I woke up on
On the concrete
Falling from cloud 9 (it was out of the blue)
I'm crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight (yeah, I'm letting you go)
I'm falling from cloud 9
I'm wide awake

Thunder rumbling
Castles crumbling
I'm wide awake
I am trying to hold on
I'm wide awake
God knows that I tried
Seeing the bright side
I'm wide awake
But I'm not blind anymore...
I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake
Yeah, I'm falling from cloud 9 (it was out of the blue)
I'm crashing from the high
You know I'm letting go tonight (yeah, I'm letting you go)
I'm falling from cloud 9

I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake